Long time.

Long time, no post.

How have you been? Me? Well I have been good, but I could say, I have been better.

Where do I start with this post. Oh yeah, the way I started with my last blog. Girls.

Fuck them.

No, seriously, I am starting to think that I will never get a girl. Never get one who I will eventually marry and grow old with.

This would be a note on my facebook, but I don't want the girl in question to know how fucking pissed off I am.

The girl in question, I have known for years. She is a great person, and fuck it, I love her. I probably should say that to her, but after the question "could there ever be a 'us'?" with the answer of "got 76 grand?" and then a "no" but then followed by a "maybe" after I mentioned I said "ever", I just don't know if she would ever see me like that.

I know she might not even live near me, and no, she isn't some chick I met on the internet. I met her in real life. Now I live away from her. But of late, we kind have started talking more, and well, she had said some things that made me think I might be in luck, you know, for something long term.

Sometimes I joke that I will live for ever, long after everyone I know has been and gone, but really, Im kidding myself. Sure I could live forever, but in all seriousness, if I did, I would only long for one person, and to know this, and to know she maybe might long for me, but only if I had 76 fucking grand, kinda makes me want to well..

No beer and no TV makes Homer go something something...

I don;t know. I just need to vent, but without my old venting forum, I just can't express myself right, its like I am just talking to a brick wall right now. So fucking pissed off about that too. FUCK!

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

And for some reason, I don't feel better.